Let go, then accept

Say Hi to my new hair style! =)

Changed my look. What do you think?

"Where comes you courage to cut your hair?"

"How will you willing to cut your hair?"

"How long you took to had your hair that long? Why?"

All sorts of questions from friends.

Ya, where come my courage? Let me tell you, when you're ready, and willing to let go and put down your past, there comes your courage. 

No matter how deep the love between us, it's not as deep as God's love. So why now let go and concentrate in loving God? So why not put down and focus on my goal?

It was a hard decision and a hard time for me I admit, but everything will come to an end, and mine is already here. I'm now accepted the truth. =)

Be contented. The world is so beautiful!

New look, new starting, new goal. Keep concentrated and run towards my goal! ^^

避难所

回到双龙，回到了自己的避难所。虽然有点孤单的感觉，当中却穿插了轻松自在的心情，就像是回到属于我自己一个人的世界。不需要隐藏任何东西，自己的感觉，不需要理会任何的事物。在这里，可以很自在的左我爱做的事！这，是我的避难所。关上门，把歌量调到最大，爱哭多久就多久，对大声就多大声！

这不就是孤僻的行为吗？我真的变得好孤僻哦... 是从几时开始，我不再是我了呢？

My holiday always went in vain...... =.= Why do I have to stay home everyday?! Why can't I even go out for a while? Stay home to be maid! WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我才发现，其实，使我不配。:)

Omamori

In love with Japan's recently. Omamori~ <3

You, all the best to you! ^^

CNY vs EOC

I'm too much in cny mood... Though came back to kl the earliest but still i couldn't switch back my mode! Aih........ Exam on Wed, yet I'm reading like a turtle... How can I not feelinf nervous for this coming EOC?! I dont know... If I fail this time, I'm sure I'll hate myself alot... Serve me right! Exam period still went out play like no body's business.....

And, I miss you.... I desparately need you.... T.T why lahhhh =.=

Pls help me..... I dnt know wat n how should I do......... I cnt lose you....yet i couldnt hv you wf me... Told myself to forget, but....... I'm afraid tat one day you might come back....

Is our promises still there? Are we going to grow old together? :) </3

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最近好多朋友生日哦! 可能是21岁吧, 大家都大事庆祝。

我项来不怎么在乎庆祝生日的, 其实有点遗憾。遗憾今年的生日就这样过去了...家里竟然没有一个人记得! -.-

那天还在家忙这个, 忙那个的... 换来的只是第二天一早妈妈问: 诶, 昨天你生日咩? 我都不知道。walao! 很失望! -.- 蛋糕都没有一个! 昨天看到朋友庆祝, 才发现是我们的21岁生日叻~ 难怪大家都大事庆祝一番~

真的有点遗憾啊~~~!!! 就这样过去了....... 我的21.... -.-

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突然的出现

突然出现，来自一位“老朋友”。

怎么，酸酸的感觉....

《最好的我》

我不在乎什么天长地久
我只在乎你想不想要拥有
一颗真心和温暖的手
在身後 陪你微笑 或泪流

我不在乎你下次回来待多久
我只在乎这心动前所未有
我不会走 Coz I Love You So
想给你最好的我 就算只是朋友

还想和你做朋友
想念 your big brown eyes
可爱的 lips I wanna kiss
I miss 想一直牵着你的手
但我还年轻 心不定 又能 怎么办

Boy 有什么话开不了口
No worries 我只是用脑想过头
拥有了又想自由 自由又想拥有
等待着 空逛着 有话别保留

他们说刮风的时候
你总选择要一个人颤抖
Guess You'll Never Know
Coz I'll Never Show
为了谁你不自由

我不在乎什么天长地久
我只在乎你想不想要拥有
一颗真心和温暖的手
在身後 陪你微笑 或泪流

我不在乎你下次回来待多久
我只在乎这心动前所未有
我不会走 Coz I Love You So
想给你 最好的我 就算只是朋友

信不过别人把你追走
也信不过自己暂时把你拥有
你低头喝着酒 别只顾喝着酒
做朋友 是保护你 最坏也是最好的藉口

我明白要你爱是荒谬的要求
我明白有些默契我必须要遵守
只是你眼眸 走漏了一种
BABY BABY 想爱不能爱的哀愁

Hey 好久不见 重记得你钟意听
不如不见 记得以前和你分享我的担心
烦恼还有我的骄傲
但现在我们之间却变得越来越有礼貌

When we broke up
你的朋友一定拍手说好
现在你身边的他们大概都不喜欢我
但是我还是我 我还一样地活
The reason why 我决定离开
There is Only One Reason
Why Coz I know you deserve better and more
没了我大家信不过的那个星座
你一定要好好生活 别想太多
为什么我写了这首歌 只想用心对你说
I love you and I still do I love you now
But It is just in a different way if I may
Hey Be sure I  know you used to love me more (appreciate)
But now as a friend
我知道当我离开世界的那一天
你一定会 流泪 在我的照片 前面
and I do the same
now coz I watch you man
coz you have always be like my family to me
这不是秘密
但是你身边仍没有 几多人知
流过的泪 说过的话 仍在我心中
虽然已经失去你
以后如果在街上碰到你和你心爱的那个谁
不后退 我会微笑 带礼貌 的心来面对

Song from you, or for you? The lyrics strikes right into my heart... 

3rd day of CNY, back to lonely life. I'm not in a good mood, definitely!
Things I like to do when I'm moody - listen to old songs. I discovered 2 songs which describe us so well...
最好的我 and 轨迹, keep on repeating these 2 songs.

I miss you~ Always do....

过年啦！龙年快乐！
过年，今年过年有好深的感触~
曾经不能一起度过情人节的年初一，
曾经我们的1.23，
这一切，都好怀念~~

你好吗？我好想你！
其实，现在的我们，到底设什么关系？
还需要坚持承诺吗？
我不喜欢这样的等待！
就像没有尽头！

又能怎样？
想要忘记你，但更加不舍得你。
想要在一起，但更害怕伤害。

信息，真的关心吗？是敷衍吗？还是只为了传而传？

我需要肯定...我需要你...

你，还在吗？

Perhaps I'm the only one cares. It only matters to me alone. Perhaps it's no longer important to you. Perhaps there are someone better. Perhaps there's something you dare not tell me. Perhaps I'm the one thinking too much. Perhaps it's true.

but who cares besides me? Avoiding me? Well no need, I'm trying my best not to disturb you. Sorry that I'm still not good in this, but I'm getting better and better.

At least in my dream, you're no longer perfect like before. Though it's just a dream, I take it as a reflection of my thinking. I'm telling myself you don't worth it! NO YOU DON'T DESERVE MY LOVE!

One day, I'm sure I can face you as a normal friend. No worries, you, don't worry.

我抱满希望, 我盼望, 我渴望, 奇迹的出现。

我天真? 可笑? 我笨? 也许...

只因为,我放不下.......你...

对不起, 打扰了。

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我喜欢你，所以你可以一点都不帅。我会拉着你的手，骄傲的在朋友们面前介绍。

因为你的外表，并不重要。

我喜欢你，所以你可以没有钱。我愿意每天和你挤公交，愿意和你一起拼命工作。

因为每个人，都有属于自己的价值。

我喜欢你，所以你可以很一般。即使没有任何的亮点，也一样会被我珍惜。

因为我在乎的是你这个人，与外在无关。

我喜欢你，所以你可以有好多哥们。我不怕因此会被忽略，反而会给足了你面子。

因为男人要重哥们义气，我懂得。

我喜欢你，所以你可以做你想做的一切。我会陪在你的身边，无论欢喜或忧伤。

因为我希望你可以因为我而变得更幸福。

我喜欢你，所以你可以偶尔对我发脾气。我只是静静的等你把气消了，再耐心的安慰你。

因为现实的压力太大了，我又能为你分担多少呢？

我喜欢你，所以你的家人就是我的家人。每个节假日，每个周末，我都会主动打个电话去问候。

因为是他们生你养你，才会让我有机会遇到你。

我喜欢你，所以我不会让你戒烟戒酒戒夜店。烦了闷了，就去做吧！

因为我相信当你有一天不想做了，自然就会停了。

我喜欢你，所以你可以有异性的朋友。也许我和她们也可以成为不错的姐妹，一起开你的玩笑。

因为这个社会无非就是男人和女人，我愿意去相信你。

我喜欢你，所以你纵使有再多的前科，也与我无关。你对我好，真心真意对我好就够了。

因为那都是过去，而我才是你的未来。

我喜欢你，所以你可以通宵打游戏。虽然我什么都不懂，可我还是愿意看着你玩。

因为有始有终总是好的，游戏也不会例外。

我喜欢你，所以你在家可以什么都不管。我会打理好一切，不让你操心。

因为男人要以事业为重，这点小事不需要插手。

我喜欢你，所以你可以赖床，可以不够男人。但对象只能是我。

因为在我眼里，这没什么可不好意思的。

我喜欢你，可以纵容你的一切。但前提是你要值得我喜欢。

我要你懂得生活，尊重生活，热爱生活，并珍惜生活。

我要你的眼里，心里，甚至是生命里只有我的存在。

我要你信任我，爱护我，心疼我，在乎我，把我当成宝贝。

我要你坚强，勇敢，自信，努力，永不放弃。

然后，我喜欢你，会和你在一起，会嫁给你，会陪伴你一生。

然后，我喜欢你，会听你讲从前的故事，会和你走完今后的路程。

然后，我喜欢你，会做你最有力的后盾，会给你一个避风的港湾。

然后，我喜欢你，直到我生命完结的那一天。

Time

Time, a mysterious element. It only travels in one direction, it won't stop for anyone anything, it goes on as usual despite of anything that happened.
Time, it just goes on and left whatever happy or sad behind and keep going till no end, keep going till the pass fade away.

Time, how I wish I can be like time.
I want to behave like time, left everything that had pass behind, keep on going till no end, till I die. How I wish I can be as numb as time.

Only through this way, I can stay a little happier than yesterday.

Life is wonderful.....Isn't it?!

我吃醋！是的，我很妒忌！

T.T 希望是我想太多。。。
对，我是自私的。。。 哪个女孩不自私，不会妒忌？

有个男孩说：“我们什么都不是，我不明白为什么我还需要凡是向她报告，还要委身给她。”
我替他的她，感到心痛。

有个女孩说：“那时，我知道无法挽回我们的感情，但是我又不舍得，只好等他开口。其实，我还放不下。”
她的他，不懂得珍惜她。。。

我呢，我说：“在我们的心里深处，位置虽然不大，但我们总会把一个人藏在里面。每次想起他时，都会感到心痛心酸。。。可是我们依然愿意把他留在心底。心里那位子，永远都是属于他的。。”

Christmas! Isn't christmas... When someone wanted to buy you something but others go and block the someone from buying it which they think you don't need it. Others, you all are so 'thoughtful' and thabk you very much!!!

2011 going to end soon and this is the worst year I've ever had! Worst christmas ever!

*at least I have my one and only christmas present from God--an ipad for christmas in my dream and tat dream made up my day!*

:)

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Hope~~less?

冬至快乐！^^

Went to Wei Min's house for dinner and group study. They tease me again with my bf LOL! >.< This is kinda weird... No idea but who cares? hahah!

Christmas is near! Exam also around the corner! Why am I not in exam mode.... =( I don't wanna fail........ Please lah.... Get back my study mood! Not play mood! Not any other mood else! =(

Aihh... emo again... =.= 

Will I be able to achieve my dream in this way of achieving? Dream, ain't difficult! Plan, easy! The problem is with chasing and achieving... With more than 50k is already in.. There's no way for turning back. 

Can I strive through this? Who knows? I may go out tomorrow, knock down by car and that's it! Someone might just climb in, give me a stab in exchange with a few papers in my purse, that's it! Who knows what's going to happen in the next second? I may just die of heart attack and THAT'S IT!!!

hope, or hopeless??

Prof Yap: If you don't study, it's your funeral. Not only yours, but also your parents'. Study, this is the act of responsibility, not only to yourself, but also to your parents.

Responsibility towards my parent, I cannot give up, no matter how difficult it is. Fees for second semester, paid. 50K already in. There's no turning back but just keep going. What if I fail my 1st MBBS?

Prof Boo: Stop worrying, nail yourself on the chair and study! Will the worrying helps you in passing? What for you waste your time worrying for something that cannot be solved by worrying?

Yea what the hell am I worrying about all these?

It's because of the burden. The loads on my shoulders. I cannot afford to fail anymore! I have not enough time to do my studying...

Helpless..... Is there anyone out there for me to lean on? I'm not as strong as people think. I need a shoulder. =(

I'm afraid! I nearly met with accident... It was so scary!!! T.T
When I close my eyes that scene will appear! If I do, I think I'll be in ICU now....
I need peace.... =( Please calm down!