清明节

太公太婆

好多东西要烧哦！

婆婆

有更多要烧给婆婆的！

怡保猪肉沙爹！好吃！

远近驰名的鸡丝河粉。

我的最爱！芽菜鸡！赞赞赞！

今年我们第一年回怡保做清明。[其实我们是在几年前才开始办清明，因为4个公公婆婆都还在世。如今只有外公外婆]由于之前爸爸忙于工作，加上某些私人原因，我们都很少回怡保。直到两三年前，婆婆病重，我们就很常回去见她。两年前她病逝了。。。我们的关系虽然并没有很好，但当见到她那生病的样子，她躺下的样子，谁都会心软。。。

去年我们没有回去办清明原因是‘南巫佬’说新山不能拜，搞得连久山也不需要拜了。所以去年我们也没去葬在甘马挽的公公。

由于公公是基督徒，我都没见识过道教的清明。今年终于让我打开眼界！今天凌晨3.30am，我们就从吉隆坡出发到怡保。到怡保家已经是6点多了。看见二伯和两个伯母。等大家梳洗后就出发到坟场去。原来除了去祭拜婆婆，我们还会去见太公太婆。兴奋兴奋！今天我才知道原来太公的名字叫‘张武有’，太婆姓‘方’，叫‘观娇’。所以我很有可能是陈龙的亲戚哦！哈哈！

我们从太公太婆的坟开始，先除草，清理，然后爸爸他们就在四周围插香，蜡烛等。把所有食物摆上祭台后，等一会儿就开始把金银珠宝倒在一起，然后点火烧。哇！对我来说很壮观，毕竟没见过嘛。。。（山芭到死哈哈！）烧完后我们就走到婆婆的坟去。同样的清理干净然后祭拜。（我们没烧香，只是献花。）

这算‘第一次’的经验还不错！过后我们回家冲凉然后就去吃午餐。超想念怡保的食物！超赞超赞！

等待

今天 STPM 09 的成绩放榜。早上学校还算冷清，没什么人来直到我们午餐时间结束。
和大伙吃完午餐后，回到PRE-U， 还是很少人。原来成绩要等到两点才公布。
两点刚好我和雪没有课，就只好在 reading room 等他们有上 Physics 的。
从 reading room 可以很清楚的看见 office 发生什么事。
我们看见人潮越来越多，气氛越来越紧张！
当年我们等待 SPM 成绩的情景一一浮现在我脑海里。当年的失落，生气，失望和伤心，我永远都忘不了！
那感觉，是如此的真实！
加上今天拿回上一次 Chemistry 考试的分数，我更讨厌我自己！

明年的今天，我会是怎样？历史从演？
不！我不要！
但...我觉得我做不到。
现在我已经跟不上课程了，更何况是以后会有更多的东西要学？
数学和化学，我的致命伤！
生物，我不够勤劳，也勤劳不起来...
PA，我无可奉告。
MUET，我的程度还停留在中5，完全没有进展。

我需要一个好的读书环境！我不想被人打扰！我需要更多的时间！

Our Super Here nowadays. MUST SEE!

Great Great Disappointment for SI2!

Woke up early today, wanted to go back to SI2 for certifying my certificate for the personal update of co-cu in TARC. First I went to a photostat shop to photocopy all my certificate. The worker there, really! No words can describe! Like turtle, the movement i mean.

When I reached my school, I was so happy to go back, going back to that place. All the memories, happy, sad, excitement, disappointment, everything! I can say all that memories are sweet for me. ^^

Unfortunately, things never goes that well until i reached the office. All clerk that I know wasn't there but all new faces. Doesn't matter, as long as I can get my thing done and go to find some of my teachers. I step forward and ask for "pengesahan" from PK.Koko Cikgu Alias.

"Hari ini tak ada orang. Semua sibuk kat dewan. Ada program."
"Pukul berapa boleh saya datang balik?"
"Sepanjang hari sibuk"
"Jadi, boleh saya ambil balik buku koko saya?"
"PK.Koko cuti seminggu. Datang balik minggun depan"

Wah! The clerk's face, like charcoal! I wonder why such people can work in SI2. Really mempersiasuehkan! Today only I knew most of my teachers were transferred to another school. All the good teachers were sent to the so call Sekolah Elit.

Sekolah Elit: Once the school is set up, only those who got 5As in UPSR(for malay) or 8As in PMR can enter. Which such condition, how can that school not elite? (and only malay can enter this school)

However, this school wasn't that elite also. The result not better than us also. No wonder they have to transferred our good teachers there.

What can I say today is, really GREAT DISAPPOINTMENT for SI2. First time, I have such feel towards SI2. *sad*

名言

有人说：爱其实很简单！

有人说：只要喜欢，开心就好！

有人说：只要他开心，我无所谓。

有人说：就算死，我也要得到！

有人说：能学习放下，才是宝贵。

有人说：时间是良药，能医治所有受伤的心。

也有人说：变心会开心！^^

放开咯！^^

我真的办得到了！我办到了！

不必再避忌你们，因为我心无歪念。
不必再逃避你们，因为我不再在意。
不必再装模作样，因为我自由恋爱！^^

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IT'S SPECIAL!!! XD

心动 v.s. 变心

我，心动了吗？
我，变心了吗？

心动·变心，
是同一时间发生的，
但，它们是发生于一瞬间，或是日积月累？

我想不清楚。。。
也不是很想去想它，
免得会很烦。

变心，是迟早的事；
心动，会否发生呢？

若我心动了，
若只有我在心动，
若他发现我心动了，
或他不知道我心动了，
若大家都心动了~

我现在的心情，
谁能理解，
谁能明白？

变心会开心吗？
心动会幸福吗？

想不通~

My 19th birthday celebration!

21/1，我的生日！
今年所得到的祝福最多了！
开心开心！
感谢所有的朋友，谢谢你们！

在19/1，希刚到马的第二天，
约了我，莹，盈和强他们到双峰塔去。
原以为只是个简单的聚会，
谁知她们早已有安排要和我庆生！
真让我大吃一惊！
开心开心！
他们把我骗进SECRET RECIPE，
然后莹和盈假装上厕所，（其实是去写生日卡片）
只留下我和希。
不久她们回来了，吃饱后。。。
店员拿着一片蛋糕来，
我才恍然大悟！（之前曾怀疑为什么她们好像鬼鬼祟祟）
朋友，谢谢你们!

21/1
今天9点课，上的是生物实验。
一进到班上，看见大家身上的黑衣，
哈哈！本班传统，每次有人生日都会穿一样颜色。
还好，我刚巧和他们穿了一样的颜色，才显到我没那么特别！
心想他们应该会在小修时间耍花样，只好等咯~
上课上到一半的时候，MSHEE突然叫我到办公室帮她拿东西。
一当然爽快的就答应啦~
一开门，SAKAI林德祥站在门口，拿着蛋糕盒，
黄德辉跟在后面，手里拿着一个蛋糕!
顿时，好感动！真的好感动~
被他们吓到！

以下是本班BLOG，有一些照片，欢迎观看哦！
http://tarc10s2a-rians.blogspot.com/2010/02/happy-birthday-to-van-class-rep-vivian.html

Miss Kemaman 2009-Presented by Kemaman Kwang Tung Association(Youth)

Presenting to you, our very Miss Kemaman 2009 brought to you by,
Kemaman Kwang Tung Association (Youth)

2nd runner up, Susan Teoh (91GenGzZz)

The helpers~ (91GenGzZz)

No.13 Soo Ehaun (91GenGzZz)

After the event, so let's have some fun! XD

Helpers~ (91GenGzZz)

All the helperssssss.... (91GenGzZz) ^^

1st runner up.

Ching! XDD

No.3 Kok Shuh Hong~ (91GenGzZz)

Right after the event, taken in the back stage~ ^^

This is sooooooo cool! XD

The 3 from 91GenGzZz... ^^

After settle everything, of course we'll go for yum cha time! hahaha.... ^^

Noob Peng~ XD

I love this pic! A lot! heee... 1..1/

Dearest naima~ ^^

Shuh Hong~~~ haha!

再袭

通常一个地方被炸，就不会再被炸第二次，因为第一次的杀伤力太大，把所有的东西一次过炸光光。

这种说法，有时也会例外。可能性有两个。

1. 第一次的杀伤力不够强，该被炸的还没被炸所以要炸第二次。
2. 杀伤力太大太大，大到无法收拾。

我的心有如那被炸过，然后再炸第二次的地方。。。痛！用在我身上的话，肯定不会是第一个可能性，因为炸在我心里的，它的杀伤力绝对是有分量的！

我没有勇气面对，所以只好选择逃避。。。因为害怕在你面前流泪，所以没有勇气与你见面。。。何时，我变得如此脆弱？我也不清楚。。。我讨厌现在的我。。。

A sudden flash back

Yesterday I was checking those photos in my phone and I discover many memorable and unforgettable memories... {EXAM}!!!

Test 3 time table...Written in the calender on my table....

Doing Math T2 exercises... Scary~~

I cooked this 3am in the morning. Too hungry, and sleepy so eat Maggi. Haha... XDD

Yummy yummy~~

Chocolate + Chemistry. For a better memorization~~ XDD

Woooow~~

To save some time of going out to buy food......

That's why i cooked myself. Instant noodle + fried egg with hotdog~ YumYum!!

Too stress doing Math T, so steal some time to take some random pictures~~

Yea, i use this to encourage myself, and also my friends!!
(Xue, Queenie, Siang, TongSeng, WeiJia & TeckHuai)

Actually during exam, it was quite fun also! I enjoy it! ^^

Chocolate Boutique

Last 2 weeks, I went to Penang following Kemaman Kwang Tung Association's trip together with my parents and twin sisters. The trip is mainly for the 214th anniversary for Penang Kwang Tung Association. So Kemaman's branch take this opportunity to have some fun in Penang.

We went to several places which are very interesting. In this post, I'll mainly introduce to you a chocolate shop(or factory?) name Chocolate Boutique.


I manage to took some pictures before the waitress told me not to do so. XDD

部落格的用处

在心悦的世界里，除了部落格，你是不会看到我哭泣！
因为。。。。我要把快乐传给身边的每一个人！
所以。。。。我所有的朋友都说：“心悦阿，是个很坚强的人！”^^

突袭的伤感

今天和家人一起看回一部韩国偶像剧，《爱上女主播》。

以前，我超爱这部片了。。。看见善美如何在奸角迎美一次又一次的陷害下，努力的撑下去。虽然实力比不上迎美，她仍然以开朗又感激的心面对每一天，从不埋怨。

自己心爱的人被抢了，善美还是尊重男方的决定。她并没有耍手段要把佑正哥给抢回来。相反的，她选择离开，到伦敦去寮伤。心地善良的她，总是得到上帝的祝福，让她在伦敦遇见了爱她的人。善美，你好幸福哦！多希望‘他’也能这样对我。。。

不知道是我太得空还是我想太多。这次再看回这套戏，我领悟到的跟之前有所不同。善美的经历，让我觉得很熟悉，有如亲身经历。原本，我以为我在一个星期前就已经康复了，但经过今天，我发现我真的需要时间。愿时间能冲淡一切;愿愉快的心情，早日与我相聚。

现在这样的日子，实在不好过。谁能替我摆脱呢？天，几时才会亮起来？我知道这一切只能靠我自己了。

关心我的朋友们，我答应你们，很快的，张心悦就要回来了。这段时间，就让我自己一个人去适应吧！

今天这感觉，我会牢牢记住。。。

在谷底

这两天心情还是好不起来。。。
我真的尽力了。。。还是做不到。。。
仍然无法把你放到一边去。。。
为什么会这样？
很不服气！很后悔！
后悔当初为什么要放弃？
有时觉得自己真的很笨！

复杂的心情。。。
我并没有伪装，而是我真的不懂要有怎样的反应和举动。。。
我不够大放，更没那么坏心眼。。。
所以我辛苦。。。
朋友，我绝对不相信你是有心要这么做，但我真的很不明白！
谁可以告诉我呢？

当初为了我们的友情，我宁愿放弃他。。。
如今事情却如此。。。
这真的不在我预料之中！

难过透了。。。

我不是出气筒！！！！

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！
我忍无可忍啦！！
不要拿我来出气！
做好你自己的本分！

Results~

Finally, we get back all our results today... *sigh*
What should I comment about it? Hmmm... Not so good, not so bad... Consider normal I think.

Biology - 83 A-
Physics - 51 C+ (SUX!)
Chemistry - 61 B
Pengajian Am - 66 B
Mathematics T - 57 B-
MUET - 78 Band 5

Some of the subjects, I know I could do better... My Math and Phy really screw up! T.T Test3, you beat me this time. I promise myself I'll de better in Test4 and so on!

Friends, sorry for being so down today... Give me some times to deal with my problems here... Thank you all for being such concerning...
Thanks Xue and Queenie! I love you! ^^

*today had enough fun in Nandos and Family un Park in Alpha Angle...

Run your own way...

I need you, is already become a past tense.
Though I love you is still a present tense.
And I'll be missing you, could be present tense or future tense.

Since the day we got our deciding sheet,
Both of us knew well that, we are on different track.
And thus, we've made the correct path for never start so that we never end.
Our friendship is still going on.
My wishes is still with you.
I hope yours is still with me too.

In this half year time,
We've been put into different situation,
And different community with people from all sorts of life.
Even though I thought out heart will never change,
However,you've change... (Or we?)

Thank you for being such honest,
And thank you for still putting me in your second place other than first place.
I'm ready to be taken out,
And I don't mind being your consultor.

You've find your new way and new hope so,
Run for it! I'll always supporting you from behind.
(I hope there'll be someone supporting me too...)
So, RUN!

Karaoke~~

Today was my ever first day went to Karaoke to sing. I went to Green Box located in Sungai Wang with another 5 friends. (Well, I know I break my own rules... This is kinda bad news for me and, I'm sad...)

Above all, we had fun there! We sang for almost 4 hours... Should I go there again? Who knows?

无言

今天，应该说是开心还是失落呢？
我真的不懂。。。
原以为今天能一次过受完所有的打击，
但却因为老师还没完成批改及考卷被锁在抽屉里拿不到。。。
结果今天只得到MUET的分数。。。有点失落。。。
对自己的作文感到十分的不满！

云顶下来后第一天上课。。。
心情，也许还未平复。。。
对一些人的行为举止，感到很不开心！

希望明天会更好咯。。。
今天，不是很完美。。。。

起伏不定的心情

很奇怪。。。
我到底在做什么？
我到底要什么？
我不知道。。。

有时我脾气很不好，我知道。。。
请原谅我的臭脾气和一点点的野蛮。。。（这不是平时的我）

最近真的不明白我自己到底这么了？
很不想这样子继续下去。。。
很不习惯。。

几时才能做会真正的我？
以前开朗，没烦恼，又能常给身边的人快乐的心悦呢？！

云顶高原

前天和几个朋友到云顶高原去。。。好玩！
很开心能跟你们一起去玩哦！
德胜，快快放照片！！ 嘻嘻。。

下次再去玩，要玩更多天的！
“玩到尽“！哈哈。。。

朋友我爱你们哦！XD

失落

上两个星期还在考大考，可说是在最后一秒尽了全力。。。失败的话也只好怪自己之前的懒散和贪玩。。。
在考试的那个礼拜，好累。。。睡眠不足的面对每一张试卷。。。
成绩出来，一箩箩错误和粗心。。。
明天还要接受三重打击！

化学-不够时间
生物-没把握
MUET-作文离题了。。。

真的不懂明天会是怎样的一天。
花了这么多时间和精力，得到的是什么？
失落咯。。。

不能继续堕落！
这个放假，我要：
#1 完成所有物理功课
#2 完成数学1 & 2 的功课
#3 和朋友完成生物PROJECT （4 份）
#4 把LOWER6的课程搞好

各位朋友，加油啦！
祝我明天好运咯~~

I Met him!

Friends, i believe 91G sure know who is Wei Sheng... And i know some of you know well what happened between us last time... He is exactly a freak! Hate him sooooo much!

The recent happened story goes like this~~

Through Ah Zhen, i knew that he is also studying in TARC... And also a friends of mine from Kelantan told me many bad things bout him... (this girl is actually the 1 who called and scold me last time) The 1st day i met her, she didn't feel ashame of what she had done! What an idiot~ She don't really give me a good of her... So what she told me, i just "o..o...o...." Then Chien told me her friend tell her that Wei Sheng change a lot...

A month later, I got a friend request in Facebook and also MSN. It's Wei Sheng... At 1st i was really naive...i tot he just wanna be friends... plus i tot he changed ma... more matured ma... then be friend lo... oklo.. i accepted his invitation... At 1sy we didn'y chat much... Until 1 day, we chat in MSN... he ask for my phone no... I don't i should give onot... so i tel him:"i never change phone no... if u rmb then rmb, if not then suan lo..." In the night, he smsed me~~

We contact more frequent during that two days... Then, he start talking cork to me... He said actually he never changed his feeling towards me la... still miss me la...still like me la...bla bla bla bla.... [stupid]

I felt the strange, so i started to avoid him... i ignore his msg, reject his calls... I even do a call block list in my phone cause he really annoy me! His words make me feel uncomfortable...

Things go smooth...but not until today... [actually you guys can take the incident today as a joke] I went to library as usual with my friends. after sometimes of tiring study, me and Shi Xue went downstairs to play facebook. We wanted to play pet society!!! I simply find an empty space and sit down.... Shi Xue was behind me, using another com... Suddenly a strange feels flow out... Don't know why my heart beat at high rate. "Wei Sheng is beside", i wispher in my heart. I turn my head, looking at Shi Xue, and i can comfirm that the guy beside me is wei sheng. Oh God.. You must be kidding me... how could this be?? =.=" I quickly run to Shi Xue, then we went upstairs to continue study... lol~~

My mood gous up and down now... too much things happened today... I cannot deal with it... STRESS!!!

3 Weeks to final!

Left 3 weeks to final!!! OMG~

I've lots of thg to catch up le... =.="

Wish me good luck... siens~~

PA tuition in Yakin Tuition Center

Today is my first time tuition in a tuition center. Interesting! This tuition center named Yakin, located at Petaling Street. I go there for my Pengajian Am tuition together with Xin Yin and Teck Huai. (If nothing happened, Shi Xue will be joining us next week. Teck Siang, join us also la...)

The fee here is quite okay...Not expansive compare to other tuition centre in KL. Registration fee RM20, monthly fee RM50. Class will be held weekly, 1 and half hour a class. From the teaching, we can know that the teacher is very experienced and his way of teaching is very clear! I love this kind of teacher.. XDDD

NO REGRET!

Collect question rather than doing it??

Yesterday during Physics tutorial, teacher wanted to checked our workbook! My first tough was, OMG! I didnt bring my book, but jz my quesiton papers... And I don't even finish half of all the practices... hehehehe~~ Since beginning, teacher gave us pratice from 1.1 - 11.2 but i jz finush up to 2.5, then follow by 4.2. meaning that, I didn;t finish my homework!

What should I do when teacher come to me? Me and Xin Yin keep laughing cz boh of us didn't finish our work. (Actually not many in the class done their work lor...) For me, i file in all my papers and the answers behind it. Once teacher take my file, then he keep praising me and try to show my work to Teck Huai since he didn't organise his papers well. (Teacher didn't realise that my papers are actually blank!)

When he realise it, then he ask me, "arrr.... this ar.. har... why got question, no answer. see... har..no answer one. ar...see....later i tell you father har.... say ur daughter never finish her work o... i oso dnt knw why...." =.="

Sorry sir...i'll try to catch up la...hehe... dnt tel my father!! XDDD I lov u teacher! hahahaha.... ^^

Group Study

Today the 7 of us started our first "official" group study. ^^ (Oh ya, forgor to introduce my 6 gengs of 'crazy') Hehehehe.... Here they come~~

From left, Teck Siang > Tong Seng > Wei Jia > Teck Huai > Vivian(me) > Shi Xue > Xin Yin

[this is our 1st unofficially group study in McD. A day before our PA test 2]

Girls are always~~~ NICE!!!

The not so gentlemen "GENTLEMEN" (hehehe)

Right after our Physics lecture, we went to the library for our group study. We did our Math T1 and Biology. ENJOY!! We really study, with some fun time intervally... hehehehe.... We started from around 3.30pm - 6.30pm.

After that, we went to PizzaHut for dinner. We have 3 pizza, 1 large 1 regular and 1 personal... with stuff crust somemore!! NICE! hehehehe... We too, added lots of cheeze powder... Yum Yum~~

We found that group study is really useful since we did not waste our time in our bed or in front the computer (since we use to do that right after our class in house before this) To not to waste anytime anymore, we plan to stay in the library every weekdays to do our homework or study... People, this is a very good way to study! ^^

I'm very happy today! Thx guys.... XDDD

发现~

刚在做数学1的功课。。。 做到一般就觉得很累了。。。加上有几题不会做。。。就更每心情继续下去了。。。

闲着没事就上网看看咯。。。雪说她放了新的POST在班的BLOG嘛。。。嘻嘻。。。

就这样不经意得到了雪的BLOG观光。Hao 爱她所写的哦！碧芬好体贴！你们大家都给了我一种很亲切的感觉。。。刚开始来这里读书还害怕会很难交朋友呢！但认识了你们，才发现这并不是很难的事嘛。。。谢谢你们！

过后又到莹的BLOG去看看。。。好像年甘马挽，好想念91G，好想念AWANA, MESRA MALL...
And I miss you all a lot!!!

Well, I wonder what's wrong with the computer... Cannot type in chinese alr... =.="

C ya guys!

25th Sept Excitement

As what I said, we were told that we'll receive our Chem papers during our practical time. Who knows, teacher give it back to us during our lecture class! What an 'impress'. =.="

Getting so excited you know... LOL~ I've been dump up in this subject... ngam ngam B- for it. T.T Getting worse alr! So we planned to decide the time for group studying right after the Chem class ended, but no result yet... =.=" Btw, I'm happy with my Bio paper! 75, ngam ngam A-. XDDD Although I've been thinking to drop it when I was studying it. Lol~~ Now I think it is impossible for me to drop it lo cause I think it is easier for me to score and it is what I want all the way... During Bio class, teacher spoke out her feeling and her disappointment towards us. :-(
We feel what we feel as we had done something that hurt her and, not only our class ba... the other class, please behave also la although you all have someone better. Respect those who guide you and teach you.

Today is a nice day! ^^ Gonna work harder for this weekend. Gambateh everyone!

The Will...

Just got back PA1 and MUET test score today. Not so good alr... 1st test better.... tomorrow will get bk Chem score... *nervous*

Before holidays, Me and my frens have a will to study hard! Yes, we must be consistent... Final test must have improvement... LOL~~ Cannot continue to be lazy liao... If not sure die!!

So, our will must be strong! XDDD

Friendship~~

Friends,
Someone that I appreciate a lot!
Someone that I couldn't live without,
Someone that I thought I've own the best one ever,
Someone that I trurst the most,
Someone that I will do anything for,
Someone that I will sacrifice for,
Someone that I seach for help, and also I help,
Someone that I need during hardship,
Someone that I care a lot!
And also someone that hurt a lot....

Friendship is actually,
Much fragile than ever you thought it is...

Steal time...

Got a chance to online now while my sis go for a bath. hahaha... XD Frens, how r u all? Doing well?

Hmmm...just finish MathT1, Phy and Muet test this week. Tmr will have MathT2 test... hope i can do well. XD just got back MathT1 result Monday ago.. Still boleh tahan la... 23/40. (3rd highest in class, but not in the whole STPM course ^^) but still have 10 marks with teacher which he gave us spot test Tuesday ago... 2 Partial Fraction question... I guess i'll die on this spot test... T.T

I thk tmr Phy teacher will give bk phy test marks. Nervous nervous nervous!!! By the way, I did not do well in this test. I know it very well.... :(

Next week most excited lo... Monday Bio, Wednesday Chem, Thursday PA1 and PA2... After that, raya holiday!! Woohooo! ^^

Lots of funny thing happened this week. Cheak out my class blog! XD