Christmas! Isn't christmas... When someone wanted to buy you something but others go and block the someone from buying it which they think you don't need it. Others, you all are so 'thoughtful' and thabk you very much!!!

2011 going to end soon and this is the worst year I've ever had! Worst christmas ever!

*at least I have my one and only christmas present from God--an ipad for christmas in my dream and tat dream made up my day!*

:)

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Hope~~less?

冬至快乐！^^

Went to Wei Min's house for dinner and group study. They tease me again with my bf LOL! >.< This is kinda weird... No idea but who cares? hahah!

Christmas is near! Exam also around the corner! Why am I not in exam mode.... =( I don't wanna fail........ Please lah.... Get back my study mood! Not play mood! Not any other mood else! =(

Aihh... emo again... =.= 

Will I be able to achieve my dream in this way of achieving? Dream, ain't difficult! Plan, easy! The problem is with chasing and achieving... With more than 50k is already in.. There's no way for turning back. 

Can I strive through this? Who knows? I may go out tomorrow, knock down by car and that's it! Someone might just climb in, give me a stab in exchange with a few papers in my purse, that's it! Who knows what's going to happen in the next second? I may just die of heart attack and THAT'S IT!!!

hope, or hopeless??

Prof Yap: If you don't study, it's your funeral. Not only yours, but also your parents'. Study, this is the act of responsibility, not only to yourself, but also to your parents.

Responsibility towards my parent, I cannot give up, no matter how difficult it is. Fees for second semester, paid. 50K already in. There's no turning back but just keep going. What if I fail my 1st MBBS?

Prof Boo: Stop worrying, nail yourself on the chair and study! Will the worrying helps you in passing? What for you waste your time worrying for something that cannot be solved by worrying?

Yea what the hell am I worrying about all these?

It's because of the burden. The loads on my shoulders. I cannot afford to fail anymore! I have not enough time to do my studying...

Helpless..... Is there anyone out there for me to lean on? I'm not as strong as people think. I need a shoulder. =(

I'm afraid! I nearly met with accident... It was so scary!!! T.T
When I close my eyes that scene will appear! If I do, I think I'll be in ICU now....
I need peace.... =( Please calm down!

Balance

When I was there, I don't feel good. I feel like coming back here, alone is better. I'd rather stay here alone without all of you. You all keep on nagging and nagging, non stop! Seems like I'm the one that bring bad luck to the family. Yea I know! I did!

Today when I'm suppose to come back here, alone, I feel lonely. I don't want to! I wanna stay with you guys. Who cares about those nagging?! I miss you guys!

I couldn't find a balance. When Friday comes, I can't wait to go back! Every Saturday, I can't wait to come back here in Sungai Long, and on Sunday, when it's the time for me to come back, I don't feel like leaving. I hate this feeling! I must overcome these! The only way is to resist on Friday! Don't go back, and it cuts of a lot of suffering....

I love my family. I really do!!! I'm no longer youngsters! Please don't turn me down everytime! Please don't ignore me! I do also need some confirmation from you people!!! Support! I hate those who look down on me but I swear I will never wan to hate my family!!!

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Why the younger one always get scolded? Why always we are the one that is doing the wrong thing? Why do you think you are always the one who's doing right? Just because you are older, you cannot accept the culture nowadays then you can always say us? who do you think you are?! SHUT UP!!! You're not always right!! You have ur own ways in doing things, we have our own ways too! Why must we follow urs then only we're consider to be smart?!

YOU REALLY PISSED ME OFF!!!! SHUT UP!!!!!

I'm so sick! So sick so sick to dream about that! >.<
I'm sick...........!

but the dream is so sweet xD

Headache yet cnt sleep... Kill me pls!!!!!!

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13/12/2011

Rainy day, ruin my plan! Planned to go pasar malam to get some vege for this week dinner but it rain! Oh no no more cheap vege this week... I'm broke this month, seriously! >.< It's just half a month and I left not much. New sem oh new sem, really need to spend a lot! Sick of maggie mee ler.... Don't wanna eat maggie again tmr... =(

What a bad day... Having headache summore... T.T someone please help me............ Exam is near again... Christmas mood? New year mood? Not at all....

第一次, 第一次这么想马上回到双龙, 就算明天是假期, 我也不介意了... 因为好想回到一个人的地方, 痛快的大哭一场!

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"i miss you"

"nvm, v can msn everyday!"

"i miss your voice"

"we will chat phone everynight!"

"can v skype?"

"sure!"

.....................................................................

"i miss you"

......................

"can i call you?"

..........................

=)

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Stop pitying yourself stop crying stop thinking about all these! Didn't you alr make your decision to let go???? If you do then just go ahead! Stop emo-ing alone here while he's so happy out there! No one will pity you! It's time to learn how to love yourself and be selfish CHONG SIN YUE!