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Sunday, May 29, 2011

30.05.2011

Tomorrow, 30th May 2011,
A new beginning,
Can I cope with it?
Can I handle it?
While I'm achieving my dream, will I give up in the future?
I always wouldn't believe what people tell me until I taste it myself.
And now I know this road isn't an easy one.
Once I've started it, I cannot stop to take a break.
No more excuses like what I've did for my SPM and STPM.
(Every time I say I'm regret of what I've done and I want to change, but I never success because I'm not consistent enough)
So will I be doing the same this time?
I don't know.
For now, I'll work hard and not to be lazy.
I must not let myself to feel sorry and regret!
No way out but keep running, towards the goal I've setted long ago.

I know I cannot do it with my own strength, but I need to consistently rely and commit to God as well.

I must be strong both mentally and spiritually.

ALWAYS TRUST IN GOD!
Dear Oh God,

Please give me strength to overcome these. I'm feeling so stress...
Please let me to have the knowledge on how to settle these... Please be with me...

Amen

Saturday, May 28, 2011

你心机真的很重! 如果你不喜欢, 你可以不用假装你喜欢!
千辛万苦搭巴士, 都没有忘记把你那重到要命, 又不重要的死人化妆品带来吉隆坡给你, 还特地驾车拿去你家给你, 谢谢都没有一句!
转身就在facebook谢谢你的姨姨!
你的心肠真的狠毒! 你知道这样会伤害到人, 你就偏要这样做! 你这个恶女人毒女人! 简直就是毒蝎的化身!

要不是你老爸发骚, 不甘寂寞, 我姐就不会上你爸的钓! 他妈的!!!! 我真的很生气! 假惺惺!

你以为照顾你的弟弟们, 很简单? 要不是她, 你会有今天? 你弟弟带今天还会继续读书? 回家睡觉发梦啦你!

再伤害我姐, 我不会原谅你! 死八婆!!!!!!!!
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Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Today i'm a failure...... I'm really useless! I hate myself!!!!!!!!
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Tuesday, May 24, 2011

First and foremost, CONGRATULATIONS DEAR!!! ^^ I'm really really happy for you!

See you are harvesting your ur fruits now! Keep it up! Can't wait to see the day you success! Keep up the good work ya~ Gambatte Gambatte! Gogogo u can do it! ^^

I rmb how you supported me last time...Now it's the time for me to support you! Hee...

You have my support and wishes~~ jiayou jiayou my dear! ^^
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That "like" is hurting.......... =(
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Monday, May 23, 2011

~^^~

1st day move into sg long. Complicated feeling... My feelings are just like mix and match lolx! Feeling lonely too...

Received msg! ^^ so happy and I really appreciate it! Thank you so much! :)

A call, it really touches me~~ Never expect we could hv such a long chat ^^ it reminds me a lot of things.. and i'm really happy! hooray!

my 1st day staying alone isn"t tat bad too... at least i have u to acc me~~

A big hug for you! ****hug**** ^^
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Sunday, May 22, 2011

Wishes~

Thank you for your wish! I do really really really appreciate it! ^^ Gambatte and keep up your good work! Rmb we chase after our dream together! =)

And to another fren, all the best to you in your future! Rmb my besties, I'm always here supporting you! Count on me! :-P
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Went to Subang Parade for lunch after fetching sis back from work. Our plan is to go to Sungai Long after lunch.

"What to eat?"
"Manhattan?"
"OK!"

Conversation between the twins.

Manhattan, yea I remember Manhattan...
I miss it so much too... but it was already different...

Another limitation? Perhaps...

Saturday, May 21, 2011

When to be limitless?

Still limiting myself,
keep limiting myself,
not to do it...

it's 5.20, nothing special actually jz bcz of the date... But everyone hope to tell or listen the word from the one they love. So do you? So am I...

I dare nt.... jz like the lyrics
"下雨天了, 怎么办我好想你, 不敢打给你"

nothing I love you! I love you so much!
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Friday, May 20, 2011

I really feel like shouting "NG TECK HUAI, I ♥ you!!!"

and I can only shout it out here~~ T____T

Where's the CHONG SIN YUE I know?!

-dead-

好想,好想~

好想,好想,好想与小叮当交朋友
好想,好想,好想拥有一台时光机
好想,好想,好想让时间倒流
好想,好想,好想再为你煮粥
好想,好想,好想再吃你煮的面
好想,好想,好想和你一起逛街
好想,好想,好想与你一起看电影
好想,好想,好想对你诉苦
好想,好想,好想听你诉苦
好想,好想,好想与你分享一切
好想,好想,好想与你分担一切
好想,好想,好想回到我们快乐的时光
好想,好想,好想让时间停留着
好想,好想,好想回到你的怀抱里~

Monday, May 16, 2011

你和我, 我疑惑。
关系, 陌生。
感觉, 却很亲切~

你对我, 到底是什么?
为什么我感觉不出是朋友?

我对你, 真的只是朋友?
对! 也只能是朋友~

我讨厌这样的我们。。。
我不喜欢这样的关系。。。
贪心的, 想要更多, 却什么也不是。。。

不逼你, 也不敢去烦你,
希望偶尔的问候, 不会让你感到反感~~
只因, 我爱你~~~

学习去, 默默的爱,
学习着, 偷偷去爱~~
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Sunday, May 15, 2011

心太软

你总是心太软心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强
你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强
夜深了你还不想睡
你还在想着他吗
你这样痴情到底累不累
明知他不会回来安慰
只不过想好好爱一个人
可惜他无法给你满分
多余的牺牲他不懂心疼
你应该不会只想做个好人
喔,算了吧
就这样忘了吧该放就放
再想也没有用
傻傻等待他也不会回来
你总该为自己想想未来

好熟悉的一首歌,
好贴切的形容,
好深的感触。。。
独自一个人流泪到天亮。。。。




Wednesday, May 11, 2011

When you decided to give your heart to someone, it's not giving him the right to love you, but giving him the right to hurt you. So be sure you give it to a right person. :)
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Preparation

The 5th day in Kemaman
Packing and preparation? Not much actually.
Gathering with friends? Yea!

Saturday, went out limteh with 91G. Tarcians are in Kemaman too! ZK, ZW, JM... Even WS came back from HongKong! Wow! It was really a meaningful gathering. We started to recall back our memory from primary school to high school. Those days were the time we stick together almost everyday! That was really fun.
Crush... Primary crush we've talked about.
FL liked QQ (according to boys, he liked her due to a reason that they refused to let us girls know >.JW liked WC, HS liked BC but BC liked KW, ZW liked CY, WX and BH were enemy. And more and more!
ZK liked WS. And guess what ZK did? He asked WS "what did you feel last time when i chased you" lolx! We were all shocked! hahah! He's always the most daring person.
And finally, they remembered my crush with JM lolx! Once upon a time~~ hahahah!
We were so naive and innocent, and that was our most happy time together. Hope that 91G will stick together always! I ♥ you all 91G! ^^

Monday afternoon, after fetching mom back form work, dad brought me to get an electric kettle from his friend's shop. Written RM78, and his friend only charge him RM48! OMG so I can imagine how rich he could be!

Tuesday night, limteh again at Sonstar-my first visit there. The environment there are pretty good, but the price are slightly higher than other kopitiam. Purpose of limteh that night was to have a look at WL's lappy(Thinking to get a similar lappy)but it seems to be too big and too heavy for me. So now I'm thinking to get Asus N-series wf 14" screen, and processor sandy i5 since i5 is already more than enough for what I need. Other wise, get a lower grade series (A-series) with i7 processor. Well, it depends on the price xD And I bought a new external harddisc! WL help me to buy it since he can get staff price hehee... (I did treat him a drink for this, and he chosen the most expensive drink >.
Wednesday afternoon, went for a hair cut. I wanted to cut off a few inches, but end up my hair is soooooooo short now! *sad* and *regret* T___T I wonder how long I need to wait it to grow back to it's original lenght... Drop by at popo's house to fetch my 2 little cousins (everyday they'll come to my house for tuition and homework) and met Ah Pak (my 大舅).He gave me an angpau, they call that "开学红包". My grandpa, my Ah Pak, my Ah Bo (大姨) and my sis' husband all gave me angpau. So paiseh~~ (happy too lar got money to settle my books and lappy =P)

So, tomorrow is already Thursday, so fast I'm going to leave my lovely Kemaman. I know this time I leave, I'll have lesser and lesser chance to come back for a long time. The most 3 days 2 night unless having holidays. And I know I'll be very busy with my studies after this. So moody to leave this place... T___T

By the way, I'm quite excited too! xD

Monday, May 9, 2011

Dare not, to disturb... Though I feel like chatting wf u..
Though I like to talk wf u...
Though I miss you...

I miss you so much...
I'll learn, to cover it up..
Keep it deep inside my heart...

Yea I need to learn...
Keep on learning~~
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Saturday, May 7, 2011

Laptop~~

Yeah my laptop is no longer a long term plan! I get get it either this week or next week yeahhh! Hoorayyy!!!

Thank you GongGong,
Thank you Kok Shi (sis' husband)
Thank you Ah Bo (my aunt)
For sponsoring me the laptop!

Hooooorayyyyyy!!!!
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Friday, May 6, 2011

Good! Such an effective friend, to tease me on this issue!
You are really a good friend who care for me so much!
Don't you feel it's so annoying that every time needs you need to check on what happen to me, just to make yourself feel better?!
It has been 16 years! 16 YEARS! Don't you feel tired? I'm tired of it really.... Few years back, I've told you about this... I DON'T WANNA FIGHT WITH YOU!

So can't you just STOP what you are doing now? Teasing me or fight with me, became your hobby?

DAM*
第二波的袭击
一个月多,两个打击,原有的都瞬间被夺去。。。
好伤心好伤心。。。
这,是什么考验?
我,能熬过这考验吗?
我,有这么坚强吗?
我竟然开始怀疑我自己。。。

张心悦,你是没有本事的啦!不要发梦了!快起身!快从梦里醒过来,面对现实!好好计划未来,从新来过!

我不知道,几时,我才能不靠拐杖,自己真正的站起来~~~

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Is that phrase referring to me?
Afraid yourself wants more, is it from me?

How I wish it is referring to me...
And I would answer you,
" Don't worry dear, I'm always here for you, forever ready for anything that you need. I'm not that powerful to help, but at least I have my ears for you. Do not afraid, as I'm willing to"

How I wish, this answer suit your question....


Monday, May 2, 2011

矛盾~
我们什么都不是
自私的我却想把你占为己有
明白你的心情
更希望你也同样的明白我
却不想成为你的负担

也许,你们只是普通的吵嘴,
却想曾虚而入
真黑心!
难道,我不在乎成为第三者?
不!绝对不行!

一定,一定要坚持
自己的信念
对你有信心
我会继续的等

每一天,都有新希望
只求你,要对我坦白~

天!我自己到底在写什么?
到底在想什么?
到底还要什么?
笨蛋张心悦!