30.05.2011

Tomorrow, 30th May 2011,
A new beginning,
Can I cope with it?
Can I handle it?
While I'm achieving my dream, will I give up in the future?
I always wouldn't believe what people tell me until I taste it myself.
And now I know this road isn't an easy one.
Once I've started it, I cannot stop to take a break.
No more excuses like what I've did for my SPM and STPM.
(Every time I say I'm regret of what I've done and I want to change, but I never success because I'm not consistent enough)
So will I be doing the same this time?
I don't know.
For now, I'll work hard and not to be lazy.
I must not let myself to feel sorry and regret!
No way out but keep running, towards the goal I've setted long ago.

I know I cannot do it with my own strength, but I need to consistently rely and commit to God as well.

I must be strong both mentally and spiritually.

ALWAYS TRUST IN GOD!

Went to Subang Parade for lunch after fetching sis back from work. Our plan is to go to Sungai Long after lunch.

"What to eat?"
"Manhattan?"
"OK!"

Conversation between the twins.

Manhattan, yea I remember Manhattan...
I miss it so much too... but it was already different...

Another limitation? Perhaps...

心太软

你总是心太软心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强
你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强
夜深了你还不想睡
你还在想着他吗
你这样痴情到底累不累
明知他不会回来安慰
只不过想好好爱一个人
可惜他无法给你满分
多余的牺牲他不懂心疼
你应该不会只想做个好人
喔,算了吧
就这样忘了吧该放就放
再想也没有用
傻傻等待他也不会回来
你总该为自己想想未来

好熟悉的一首歌，
好贴切的形容，
好深的感触。。。
独自一个人流泪到天亮。。。。

♥

第二波的袭击
一个月多，两个打击，原有的都瞬间被夺去。。。
好伤心好伤心。。。
这，是什么考验？
我，能熬过这考验吗？
我，有这么坚强吗？
我竟然开始怀疑我自己。。。

张心悦，你是没有本事的啦！不要发梦了！快起身！快从梦里醒过来，面对现实！好好计划未来，从新来过！

我不知道，几时，我才能不靠拐杖，自己真正的站起来~~~